I toyed with the idea of talking to her.
Just to find out how she felt about what has happened.
Perhaps i am curious to know why she did what she did.
Just like i am curious to know why he did what he did.
Why i did what i did.
Would it help?
I am not sure.
Why dig it all back up again?
Do i matter to her?
Does she know what she has done to me?
What have i done to her?
Does she know that i am scared of her?
Perhaps in her eyes, i am the interloper... the one who screwed things up for her.
Its all a matter of perspectives.

It is only an idea that i am toying with.
Letting it go.
Letting it all go away.
I need to get better.